Lately i have being trying to avoid a topic - YOU.
But i guess i cannot help myself but just admit that you are all that is on my mind. From the moment i open my eyes to face the day, till the time when i close them to conclude a another day without you in my life, all that is in my mind -- its you.

Despite of knowing that, i somehow put a smile on my face and head out in search of new beginnings. Also knowing that it would all be in vain because..... well you know as they say - " The heart wants what the heart wants. "

I still walk by the alleys and all the places we've been to when we were together. And in midst of the silence of the alleys, i hear echoes of joy and laughter.

Is it normal for me to think this way? Do i sound like a total loner?

It is not right to influence a person to gain something, especially if that person is someone you love.
But i'll be selfish and say that i wish i was the guy standing next to you rather than him. But i am not....

I do not have the right to make or break a relationship and i will not be a guy who would do anything to change anything you have in your life.

Guess all that is left with me is appreciation and gratitude. Thank you for changing my life and making into a person you always wished i would one day be. I only wish that in order to gain this, you would not have had to leave. Thanking for saving a lost boy and turning his life for the better, a life to be proud of, a life that would make a mother feel that she has done her job in raising a good son..... a life that can be an example of grace and love.

Now i only wish that someday, somehow you will wake up. You will wake and realize how much i truly love you. And that day i still will be waiting round that corner for an opportunity to live life again. Breathe. Love. Give back.

*THIS IS MY VERY FIRST BLOG SO.... YEAH WHATEVER*

Anyway, let’s just get right to it. I have had a breaking point as of late. I am attempting to expand my horizons and branch out as an artist/music bug, so I am on the internet a lot.

As a writer and musician, I observe people and the world around me a great deal for inspiration. It is becoming increasingly and painfully obvious that lately, our entertainment in society is taking a hard nosedive into nonsense.

Recently, all I see on social media is stuff like the “celebrity” (for whatever reason) say X, posing nude and “revealing” her self. Massive amounts of reality television are ruling the airwaves.

I turn on the radio on occasion, just to see what is considered “pop” music these days and I hear the most mindless, ignorant phrases being repeated over and over. Songs about living for tonight and tonight let’s bang because tonight I’m yours or tonight someone drugged me…

Seriously, turn on your radio and you will hear the word “tonight” on any station multiple times.

We are living in a distracted and temporary society. We are entranced by pointless entertainment that is slowly draining the intelligence out of us all, in one way or another.

You can call this a rant, make a snide comment about it on some online forum, “troll” me, what have you…I really don’t care.

I am fed up and honestly quite confused as to why this overall dumbing down is happening these days. Why is the stupidest form of entertainment commanding the airwaves and the internet?! Why are people who are contributing nothing to art and culture have a massive skewed points of view and bias opinions? 

Well, I thought about it for a few minutes and it struck me: things are the way they are because we allow it to be so!

We are responsible for the collective “us.” This is simple supply and demand. For example, when someone posts a ridiculous article on Facebook and you click on that link because you want to see how dumb it really is, your “click” is a vote — a signal to whomever is monitoring that site that this “interests you.” I know it happens all the time, because I do it too!

As far as the reality television goes, I can’t tell you how many times I have heard “I only watch it because it’s soo dumb.” Perhaps there is that ridiculous song that you “just like the beat to” and “ignore the lyrics.” We have just got to stop this nonsense!

Granted, I know with this article, I am only talking to a small population (probably just you), but for those of you who are still reading (and not distracted by something of the internet), you are my people — I am talking to you.

We have to wise up! We need to raise the bar and not participate in all of this nonsense (the finger is pointed back at me too here). What we do on a daily basis counts for something. As small as it may seem, it matters in the long run.

Stand up for what you believe in! Pursue a dream! Fight a social injustice! Raise awareness for a good cause! Have an intelligent conversation! Turn someone on to a great band! BUY MUSIC! Shut your phone off and go for a walk in the streets! Suggest a good read to a friend perhaps…but stop participating in this stupidty.

I want to be clear here: I am all about fun and enjoying life. I have a dark sense of humor, and I participate in stupid stuff here and there for the laugh of it (ask my friends about that). However, I just feel we all could be more aware of how much we allow our minds to be steeped in stupidity. Our brains are an amazing electrified mass of potential. We are capable of profound and brilliant things. Our brain takes in what we feed it, what we allow it to absorb. If we are taking in too much nonsense, then nonsense will begin to outweigh the intelligence.

All I ask as a fellow human that still believes we as a species are capable of great things is contribute to the greater cause. Uplift and edify, teach and learn. Make a difference in somebody’s life; even if its just a small seemingly insignificant thing, it counts.

If you take time to step back and see the larger picture of this life, there is so much more than meets the eye.

The media will continue to heap massive amounts of mind-numbing content, but you have a choice to be a part of the problem or a part of the solution. Life is much too precious to waste it reading about Kim Kardashian’s big ol’ butt, the top ten celebrities who blah, blah, blah, or watch a reality show about some family and their “problems” (pay attention to your own problems!)

You have your free will, and you will do what you want regardless. I just ask, as a conscious, concerned citizen of humanity…let’s all just wise up a bit!

Thanks for reading my “rant.” Keep reading, writing and thanks for flexing that muscle between your ears.

One Love.

Keep fighting the good fight!

P.S.: Have you ever watched the movie “Idiocracy?” I avoided it for a long time, thinking it was just another stupid spoof comedy. Now that I have watched it, I realize the genius of it! This movie — although exaggerated and ridiculous — does make a very valid commentary on our current state of affairs.