Lately i have being trying to avoid a topic - YOU.
But i guess i cannot help myself but just admit that you are all that is on my mind. From the moment i open my eyes to face the day, till the time when i close them to conclude a another day without you in my life, all that is in my mind -- its you.
Despite of knowing that, i somehow put a smile on my face and head out in search of new beginnings. Also knowing that it would all be in vain because..... well you know as they say - " The heart wants what the heart wants. "
I still walk by the alleys and all the places we've been to when we were together. And in midst of the silence of the alleys, i hear echoes of joy and laughter.
Is it normal for me to think this way? Do i sound like a total loner?
It is not right to influence a person to gain something, especially if that person is someone you love.
But i'll be selfish and say that i wish i was the guy standing next to you rather than him. But i am not....
I do not have the right to make or break a relationship and i will not be a guy who would do anything to change anything you have in your life.
Guess all that is left with me is appreciation and gratitude. Thank you for changing my life and making into a person you always wished i would one day be. I only wish that in order to gain this, you would not have had to leave. Thanking for saving a lost boy and turning his life for the better, a life to be proud of, a life that would make a mother feel that she has done her job in raising a good son..... a life that can be an example of grace and love.
Now i only wish that someday, somehow you will wake up. You will wake and realize how much i truly love you. And that day i still will be waiting round that corner for an opportunity to live life again. Breathe. Love. Give back.
But i guess i cannot help myself but just admit that you are all that is on my mind. From the moment i open my eyes to face the day, till the time when i close them to conclude a another day without you in my life, all that is in my mind -- its you.
Despite of knowing that, i somehow put a smile on my face and head out in search of new beginnings. Also knowing that it would all be in vain because..... well you know as they say - " The heart wants what the heart wants. "
I still walk by the alleys and all the places we've been to when we were together. And in midst of the silence of the alleys, i hear echoes of joy and laughter.
Is it normal for me to think this way? Do i sound like a total loner?
It is not right to influence a person to gain something, especially if that person is someone you love.
But i'll be selfish and say that i wish i was the guy standing next to you rather than him. But i am not....
I do not have the right to make or break a relationship and i will not be a guy who would do anything to change anything you have in your life.
Guess all that is left with me is appreciation and gratitude. Thank you for changing my life and making into a person you always wished i would one day be. I only wish that in order to gain this, you would not have had to leave. Thanking for saving a lost boy and turning his life for the better, a life to be proud of, a life that would make a mother feel that she has done her job in raising a good son..... a life that can be an example of grace and love.
Now i only wish that someday, somehow you will wake up. You will wake and realize how much i truly love you. And that day i still will be waiting round that corner for an opportunity to live life again. Breathe. Love. Give back.
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